Grass
I once worked for "social welfare" on the
far-northern coast of
Late mornings, we'd sit down to genuine so-called
Portuguese soup, but after that she'd gradually fade. Took to speaking, flute-like and feverish, to
empty chairs. One day she opened up the
garage, introduced me to her husband. She couldn't sleep nights at all anymore,
so fell to dreaming half the day long. Later it was monkeys. In
the garage.
I don't know. Who's
to say about "dirty"?
And then there was Mabel, ninety-some years old, who lived with her sons back of a lumber operation, the dust
forever blowing through all their affairs.
I was hired to sweep it back out.
I remember their rooms were all choked, and dim. I remember pushing whole broomfuls of sawdust
down the one hall, and out of corners where it liked
to settle.
Mabel was always asking did I study my Bible? And on and on about her
ancient Scottish forebears. How
long they resisted the Roman invaders.
I'd say,
One afternoon, soon as I stepped through the door, she flustered
admonished sit down, sit down. Her
daughter's house had caught fire the night before—they all suspected
the "good-for-nothing husband"—a five-year-old grandson burned
alive.
I didn't know what was proper to say. We sat awhile in rocking chairs and
rocked: menial labor, minimum wage.
Dust went on gathering over the floor.
And, finally, a Yurok man, fulblooded I think, named Dewey
George, his trailorhouse crammed with ceremonial regalia. I knew enough of local tribes to know that,
for them, all things had a
I'd cook Dewey big greasy steaks,
get down on my knees to clip the most direful nails. One day he made a rude pass, but was almost
charmingly contrite just after. That's
when he carved me a genuine so-called Yurok canoe. It was full of people all out of proportion,
heady red bodies the red wood of the boat, and everyone went without eyes. He called them hunters.
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I've traveled in, say, a dozen Greyhound buses, all across
the country. Mothers and kids in back,
crazies and drunks and middle class oddballs, like me, around about the
middle. One time this girl up front,
paraplegic, I think, was faring some kind of private marathon, one coast to the
other and back nonstop. We talked a bit
in one of those bus station restaurants, chile and oily eggs and reheated
potatoes. Dust of
Today I'm revelling alone in the sun alone. This is
Now an old guy in baggy pants and a hunter's cap is out
meandering around. Every time he
shuffles near, he continues the "conversation," begun who knows
where, with who knows whom. Memorial Day
and there's no place to go, everything closed.
"They'd starve a man on a holiday," he says, and ambles,
circles away.
When he circles back, and I suspected he would, he comments
on the weed-infested grass. We discuss
Park Management.
In the distance to the west of me now, across some heavy traffic,
a train is creeping towards the border. The city station isn't far, and I wonder what
the people in charge there think they are doing. The train so slow, finally, it's perfectly still—
one small bell clanging
and clanging—
and now the train is
moving slowly backwards.